The Arsonist in me

This compulsion,
this absolutely destructive self,
this desire to put everything on fire.
It scares me and frees me
at the same time.

How redeeming and chaotic
is the power of fire,
to vanish old ghosts
and to let go and die a little.
I am an arsonist at heart
but I know if I start
I will never stop.
But someday...
some awful rainy day,
I will light a match.